September 24, 2010

Nothing Stays the Same

As much as I love writing and blogging, I find myself lost within this mental fog. There are numerous topics I want to venture into, but sorting out the direction of this blog is my dilemma.

So with that being said, I am going to send out my last little note today. It has been an absolute joy, reading and sharing opinions with you.

At this time, I will not give an estimated time when, or if I will return back to the blog. Insha'Allah if I do...I hope to be more energized and fearless!

No matter what the future holds, is not for me to say. But I know that giving refuge to the opinions of some, is no longer healthy. This life we live is not a test...there are no "do-overs" either we get it right, or we fail.

However during the time we are here, we are constantly searching. The search for truth, our place in this world, for value of our lives to others etc.

Insha Allah along the way these discoveries will be realized. In the meantime may all of us learn (myself especially) never give up the wonder of discovery.

Okay everyone keep positive thoughts because the negative ones will survive just fine without our encouragement.(smile)

Thank you for allowing me to share some of my thoughts and my heart.

September 18, 2010

Hi Everyone!

The holidays of Ramadan and Eid have now I will return back to my blog. Insha'Allah everyone has been in good health since we last touched base. This is just a brief little post to say hi, and that you have been missed.

For all who sent me good wishes for Ramadan, my very best for you and your families. Okay I will try and post tomorrow insha'Allah. In the mean time hugs and my duas to everyone!

August 12, 2010

To the Ummah With Love

Allah's Messenger (SAAW) said, "When the month of Ramadan starts, the gates of the heaven are opened and the gates of Hell are closed and the devils are chained." [Bukhari]

Ramadan Mubarak to all Muslims around the world!

This is not my usual post; instead it is simply an extended prayer. As we continue with our fasting and worship to Allah SWT let us each ponder over this feeling of unity.

There are no additional hours in the days, yet during this month we are able to accomplish all that we need to do. Our emotions towards one another are gentler; the Salams flow from our mouths like honey.

Insha’Allah we will continue to hold onto these beautiful experiences shared within our families and communities. May each prayer and day of fasting be accepted and rewarded Ameen. I will be keeping you each in my prayers…love you all for the sake of Allah!

August 4, 2010

It's Almost Here!

Exactly one week from today is the beginning of Ramadan! During this month, the majority of Muslims will celebrate this spiritual time with fasting and insha’Allah a symbolic cleansing of the soul.

Subhan Allah two years ago I experienced my 1st Ramadan. As a new Muslim I was so excited! But not for the reason you may think, because I mostly heard about the worldly part of this blessed month.

Sisters would tell me the fasting, probably being difficult the first few days, would become easier insha’Allah as the month continued. This was said in a matter-of-fact kind of way not giving much emphasis on the true meaning of fasting. As a new Muslim of only six months at that time, I was like a student, following my sisters for guidance.

So what did elicit the most excitement? It was the planning of the meals! I felt the meals during Ramadan had to be greater, and larger than any other meal experienced during the entire year! Recipes from the old countries [back home] were being emailed and translated from one relative to the next. The search for the perfect lamb or goat was essential. Sweets were being prepared days in advance, while the children counted down the days until receiving their Eid gifts.

I would call some of my sisters, and could hear the stress in their voices to finish cooking. The second the sun had settled below the horizon…it was on! Iftar (the meal after sunset) is meant to give thanks to Allah [swt]. The purpose of eating iftar is to have just enough to end the pangs of thirst and enjoy family and friends insha’Allah. Eating until you physically can not take another bite or sip or water, is never good. We should weigh less after a month of fasting – not more LOL.

The next “important” thing I learned was making sure to get my dress early. “What dress I asked?” Feeling a notable awkward silence, it was explained, usually sisters will by a new dress for themselves and new clothes for the entire family. Sorry husbands, but I hear you have to participate also in getting new clothes.

Eid is the Festival of Sacrifice and marks the end of Ramadan. So that was my 1st Ramadan, and it was nice and I was excited but not for the right reasons.

Just as I had searched for Islam, I also had to discover the heart of Ramadan. It is to ask for the repentance of past sins and mistakes. We are to ask forgiveness from one another if possible. If this is not feasible, then our intentions should reflect a sincere change for the better.

Reciting the entire Qur’an is also performed during the month insha’Allah. In case you’re wondering, I never bought a new dress for that 1st Eid or the next. And while my meals were simple, it was the idea of millions and millions of Muslims across the world united that truly fed my faith.

To my new revert sisters and brothers in Islam, I pray for your trials to be few but Allah knows best. There is nothing we can do that Allah [swt] will not forgive except associating others in worship to Him.

For all Muslims, insha’Allah we will leave behind our past faults. And start the New Year filled with hope. May we each live to see this Ramadan. I love you all for the sake of Allah [swt].

July 14, 2010

Marriage and I Do?!

Happy Summer everyone! Let me give a heartfelt thank you, for staying with me and to my new followers. I have missed my (our) blog more than you know.

Okay the window is open, and there is not a breeze to be found for miles…have summers become hotter? Yes! The answer is a resounding yes. But what can we expect in July; anyway recently I have been taking on the role of my own guardian/wali and cheerleader. The saying “taking the matters into your own hands”, has never been more appropriate.

These are the times I miss my best friend, without failure she would know exactly what to say to cheer me up – or have me laughing endlessly at life’s ups and downs. I have told everyone possible (almost) that I am on a quest to re-enter the land of marriage. Now for all you sisters who are sailing in the same boat as I…you know the combination of oddly bizarre mixed with “are you serious?” proposals that are being offered. LOL, there is a vast space between wanting to be married and being desperate to get married.

One particular brother required that his wife “keep the television on CNN and the news only, not talk much and know her place” in his home.

Hmm, now I know sisters you are asking yourselves…how is this brother still single? Shocker I know [cough] let’s just say I am almost 99.9% certain that he is still available. Email me if you would like to be introduced (insert laughter at anytime) and I will arrange an introduction. And for that .01% who think he is perfect, then masha Allah.

Seriously I know there is compromise in every marriage and through time insha’Allah both husband and wife, will learn to exist in their own harmony. But if a person is going to be so rigid in his/her wants and beliefs, the odds of finding that harmonious balance will be limited.

Only Allah swt knows for certain if and when this Muslima will ever get married. Until then I will keep smiling and making dua’s. Again thanks so much for checking back to see if I have updated the blog. Hopefully I will be able to keep it more current insha’Allah.

Oh if you hear of any available older (not ancient) brothers who are sincerely interested in marriage…you have my email.

Keep cool and Hugs!

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