June 1, 2010

Worrying...Yet Again.

Every now and then I like to blog about faith. I need to write about is as a continuous reminder for myself, as well as a purging of all matters that weigh me down. These past few days…have accumulated worries and doubts that I have quietly pushed further down inside my soul.

To me, prayers are invisible words that travel on an extraordinary path. Insha’Allah they appear before Allah (swt) in purity and form once they have been received. My imperfections in words are replaced with the intentions of my heart, and only Allah knows best.

Yes, life is unexpected and this is part of the test we face as Muslims. But I wonder how I [we] stay guarded against heartache, seduction, or even more difficult in my life…the loneliness?

Alhamdulillah there are lectures which are very encouraging. Reading the Qur’an and hearing its recitation provides a comfort that is beyond words. However, the soul is still contained in a human body, and it’s natural to want the comfort and companionship of another person. Truthfully we are not meant to be alone! Okay so that’s not a news flash I know…none the less I am viewing this life in the single lane, and it’s not so great.

LOL, I can hear some of you saying, “Nazeeha, the married lane is not what it’s cracked up to be either!” As I said these past few days, are not going to be remembered fondly (insert sad face now) but, insha’Allah happiness is on its way! Let me be realistic, “happiness” may be too much to expect. But it’s my nature to remain optimistic.

Allah’s Apostle said, “The invocation of anyone of you is granted (by Allah) if he does not show impatience (by saying, “I invoked Allah but my request has not been granted.”) Narrated Abu Huraira: Volume 8, Book 75, # 352:

You know I just had a encouraging thought…what if my future hubby stumbles across my blog…and says “Alhamdulillah” I think by the Mercy of Allah (swt) she is right for me!

Alhamdulillah for letting me vent and insha’Allah keep me in your prayers.


ishqia said...

May Allah ease your difficulties and relieve you of your loneliness.

hijabandroses said...

Ameen, Jazak Allah Khairan sister.